Chapter 8
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Was the saying ‘I saw what I wanted to see,’ supposed to crumple his face like a person who was slapped?
“No… It’s the sunset, the sunset.”
I pointed to the reddish sky behind him.
Edlade glanced at the sky and looked at me again.
His gaze followed me as I stood up awkwardly.
I’ve felt it before, but why does Edlade stare at me as if I would stab me?
Without concern.
“What’s that?”
“What?”
“That thing.”
His gaze was on my shoulder.
His eyes must have caught the blood on my clothes.
“Oh, because it’s itchy.”
“…do you have a disease?”
“No, the bugs bit me a little while ago.”
“……”
Edlade looked down at me without a word.
After the regression, it was the second time today that I met him more than once a day.
The day after regression and today.
“That.”
This time, his eyes turned to my scattered hair.
Even if I didn’t say it, I answered awkwardly with my eyes asking why he was asking that.
“Because it’s itchy.”
“Are you raising bugs on your body?”
“What are you talking about?”
“Because it’s itchy.”
“It was because of the bugs.”
Damn Conzel.
If it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t have shown my ugly appearance to Edlade. I am embarrassed.
I was determined to sneak in front of him in the greenhouse, but I didn’t expect him to show up so quickly.
Once a day he may show his generous interest, but twice is dangerous.
I can’t believe I am in such a shabby appearance.
“You told me to be unnoticeable, but I’m sorry.”
“……”
“I thought you went out… Oh, no, There was a visitor, no! no.”
“……”
I awkwardly put my hands together.
Gibberish would seem weird.
“I’ll go in.”
His forehead was full of wrinkles.
Maybe he’s annoyed to see me again.
It hasn’t been long since he told me to stay out of his sight.
It must be annoying to see me in an embarrassing state in such a short time.
I wanted to see him more, but I had to get out of there considering that the meeting was the second time of the day.
Did Halbert tell me to avoid Edlade for no reason? The promise to snoop around must be only once a day.
‘I still want to see him a little more.’
It was an honest desire.
“Wait.”
When I turned my back and took less than two steps, Edlade called me first.
I flinched as if my heart had been caught by my reckless behavior.
Coming closer, he suddenly pushed his face in. My heart jumped when his face appeared right in front of me.
Ah…
Oh my god.
What should I do?
He’s so handsome.
“Did your Majesty send you to me?”
“…His Majesty ordered a political marriage.”
“Why did he do that?”
“I don’t know…”
“Why did he send you…”
Edlade said as he ran his fingers through his hair as he did in the greenhouse.
“I wanted to know what’s going on.”
In what part?
However, Edlade’s way of saying such a thing was so sensual that I couldn’t even breathe properly.
Am I so lustful that I couldn’t even breathe?
“I can tell you.”
“What?”
“…anything you want.”
Haha – he laughed.
Even a small act of glancing made my lower abdomen strangely hot.
What the hell is he doing?
What is this? Why are you making a person so hot?
“Did you do that?
My face heated up.
I just realized what I had just said a while ago.
Shame came all the way to the tip of my fingernail and bowed my head.
Edlade couldn’t see my face because of my bowed head, thus he reached out as if he didn’t like it.
He reached out his hand and grabbed the tip of my chin and lifted it, revealing my reddened face.
I can’t resist.
I can’t resist this man.
I was frozen, captivated by the eyes of the beast as if it had found an interesting prey.
I could feel the heat on my face, which was burning with embarrassment.
I bit my lower lip feeling pathetic about myself.
A strange emotion passed through Edlade’s gaze.
I didn’t know what it was, but I knew that I looked very funny.
Until a little while ago, I thought to leave quickly as it was the second meeting of today.
I thought to flee.
I am happy that I reached a little bit closer to the man who would surely forget me by tomorrow.
I’m glad he showed interest.
Ashamed of myself, I felt like crying.
“Anyway, tomorrow… you’ll forget me, so it doesn’t matter… even if I look like this.”
He grabbed my chin and scanned my face thoroughly.
He didn’t take his eyes off him as if he didn’t want to miss even a single drop of tears.
He looked at me like that for a long time and said softly.
“Are you doing this on purpose?”
“….What.”
Once the tears flowed, they continued to flow as if there had been a hole.
I was overwhelmed with sadness. I bit my lips hard to control my tears.
Then, his cool fingers swept over my biting lower lip.
As if not to do so.
Devilishly and carefully.
“You’re not self-conscious.”
It was an indifferent word that was completely different from such a touch.
***
I sat on the bed and stared blankly into the air.
The hot moment in the garden, when I couldn’t even breathe, kept lingering in my eyes.
He looked very different from the man I knew.
Quite different from the kind man I remember, but I was right.
Once again, I seemed to understand why he was called a beast.
I just thought it was called a ferocious beast because of his strong power that everyone feared. So, in my last life, as soon as I saw him for the first time, I was trembling in fear
But only today did I know the true meaning of the nickname.
What the hell was that?’
As if a pheromone had flowed out, I was sure that I was addicted to him at that moment.
His eyes, the movements of his fingers, and his voice that squeezes my heart.
What would have happened if Halbert had not come to find Edlade at that moment?
Was I thinking of hugging him, who will forget me again tomorrow?
‘Yes, I did. I thought it was okay to hug at that moment.’
I have no choice but to admit it.
It’s the body I’ve already hugged over and over again.
Just as my heart wanted him, the body also desperately craved for him.
“You were the one who said this.” He gently stroked his lips.
Crazy! Crazy!
I was even more ashamed of my actions, so I had to lay down on the bed and hit the pillow with my fists.
“Argh!”
I’m embarrassed.
Oh, I’m really ashamed.
I couldn’t get myself together until I hit my pillow five more times lying on my bed.
knock, knock
Lasha came in around the time I calmed down
She must have been a little worried about my dinner and bath.
It was understandable because I came with sparse hair and a wound on my shoulder.
“His Excellency asked me to deliver this.”
“What’s that?”
“It’s a medicine for wounds.”
What Lasha delivered was a very good ointment that immediately heals when applied to the wound.
“Who gave this to you?”
“His Excellency asked me to deliver it.”
“It’s crazy.”
“My Lady!”
No one was listening, but Lasha looked around, wondering who would listen.
I took the ointment, muttering the words Edlade had uttered to me again and again. “You were the one who said this.”
“It’s really crazy…”
“My lady!”
“Yes.”
Yes, I should be careful with my words.
Lasha was overjoyed that Edlade had shown interest in me.
Because she was one of the people who knew Edlade didn’t remember me.
Lasha’s eyes shone with the hope that tomorrow Edlade might remember me.
It wasn’t that I didn’t have that hope.
I just didn’t say it out loud because I didn’t want to end with false hope from the morning.
“My Lady, are you going to go look for the dress to wear for the spring flower ball tomorrow?”
“The Spring Flower Ball”?
“Yeah, there’s only one month left, so I guess I’ll have to hurry up to get a nice dress.
“Ah…….”
After the regression, I wrote down the schedules that I must remember.
The first of them was the spring flower ball, and I felt pathetic that I had forgotten even for a moment.
‘I have to pull myself together.’
I told Lasha to get me ready to go out tomorrow and then sent her.
“My head was full of spring flowers.”
I lay down on the bed smiling awkwardly.
‘Honor me a chance to dance with you.’
Even though he didn’t have to ask me, we had to dance because we were a couple.
Otherwise, there will be rumors in society that there is a conflict between the couple.
Any couple has to dance at least once unless they are going to divorce. Still, Edlade had politely asked for a dance.
It was a request for her to do the final dance, which is probably the heart of the Spring Flower Ball.
That was the moment I first felt he was cute.
I might have felt it was cool.
I don’t know the details, but I haven’t been afraid of Edlade since that day.
It’s been a month and a half since we got married.
‘And the affair with Scotty began.’
It was embarrassing, but it was a festival that I had to attend. It was the first official event to be held after marriage.
I lay in bed and put aside the bad thoughts and remembered what had happened with Edlade at sunset.
I wondered if my head had really become a flower garden.
Of course, thanks to that, drowsiness kicked at the moment my head hit the pillow.
I couldn’t sleep well because of Edlade and thoughts about the spring flower ball.
I rubbed my sleepy eyes when Lasha said that I had to leave early in the morning.
I couldn’t get over my drowsiness until I changed into my outdoor clothes, put on a wide-brimmed hat, and headed out to the lobby.
Mornings are really, truly hard.
“…… Ha, did I really marry this woman?”
A voice with a bit of annoyance.
Today’s beast, ignorant of yesterday, said the same thing to me again, and I became a stranger to him again.
The vigilant eyes that looked over me as if searching, seemed to ask if I had a good dream last night.