Chapter 21
Today was the day he left for the battlefield.
I didn’t have to see him off.
No, actually, I didn’t want to go.
I didn’t want to see his face. But I needed to know what he was thinking, and what he wanted by telling me such a lie.
I impulsively went to the wall. I didn’t want to see his face, but I wanted to make sure he was really leaving.
I just wanted to see with my own two eyes that I was leaving, and that was all.
A strong wind blew as I climbed up to the wall.
“Princess!”
“……”
I could see him leaving. At that moment, the villain headed toward me.
It wasn’t clear because there was quite a distance, but it seemed like we had eye contact. And smiled at me.
It was all a bunch of pretenses. His smile felt disgusting.
“… Liar.”
“What?”
Still, I was a little relieved to think that I would not see him for a long time to come.
It didn’t feel bad for me to think about not seeing that disgusting face.
And because there is hope that I can keep the story away from the original.
Perhaps the reason why he is obsessed with marriage with me may be because he has his eyes on the throne like in the original story.
Is he acting with the intention of making the imperial family feel safe with him and betray us later?
Is participating in this war for that reason too?
“…… Nanny, let’s go back”
“Yes, Princess.”
It was not a war that my precious brother or father went directly to. It was a war in which the villain participated in the war and he might die.
So there was nothing to worry about.
I just need to think about the well-being of me and my family.
“Princess, do you have any concerns?”
“… No.”
“I’ll listen to everything, I’ll keep it a secret from His Majesty, so don’t worry”
“… Nanny. What do you think about me marrying the Duke of Siegbert?”
“Um …. I don’t know what the imperial family might think, but I want the princess to be happy.”
“My… happiness?”
“Yes, it’s your choice. Don’t choose something you will regret.”
From the beginning, this war will end with defeat. So I never had to marry him.
But why do I keep feeling anxious?
“Nanny, if I marry the Duke of Siegbert, that’s a good choice for the imperial family, but for me, it’s not a good choice.”
“I just want the princess to be happy.”
“……”
“Because you make all the choices.”
The choice is mine. I was also responsible for my choices.
What do I want to do?
What do I want?
“First of all…”
After hearing my nanny’s words, I crawled into the bed in my room.
As expected, it’s dangerous outside the blanket. It’s so comfortable when I’m under the blanket.
“Nanny, should I run away?’
“Where?”
“… Or should I just go on a trip?
“It’s not bad if you’ll feel energized again.”
“… Then I’ll go.”
I have enough time anyway. I just need to go on a trip and sort out these fresh and unknown emotions.
My dad and brother are busy people, so even if they want to go with me, they can’t.
I want to persuade them to come, but I don’t want to bother them.
It wouldn’t be a bad idea to just wander around the villa belonging to the imperial family so that the two of them don’t have to worry about me while I look at the beautiful scenery.
Then, it would be better if I could see the person I was looking for.
It couldn’t be, but it couldn’t be helped to have some hope.
“I’ll tell my dad before I come back. That way, I’ll leave tomorrow!”
“Princess…”
” I will give my nanny a vacation. I wanted to travel alone anyway.”
It’s not a difficult request anyway, he will just give me an escort and grant me permission.
Without hesitation, I headed straight to the office where my dad was working.
“Dad!”
“Yulia?”
“I want to go on a trip.”
“A…trip?”
“Yes! Of course, I’ll be accompanied by an escort!”
“How long do you plan to be away?”
“I want to travel for about two months.”
“If you hadn’t accepted Duke Siegbert’s request…”
“No, it’s not because of that”
For a while, I wanted to untangle my complicated mind while traveling.
Then I might come up with a plan to protect my family.
“Just… It seems like I’ve only been in the castle so far, so I want a change in scenery.”
“…… Are you planning to go alone?”
“You can give me an escort.”
“You’d better take your maid too.”
“Then I’ll do that.”
It’s okay to go with anyone. I’m not running away anyway, and I’m coming back here. Because this is my home
“‘I’ll definitely be back in two months”
“Yes. You can stay longer if you want.”
“It’s fine, I’ll come back as soon as I can. Dad… you’re very busy right?
“If it hadn’t been for work, I could have gone with you, I’m sorry.”
“No! I’ll go now.”
“Yes.”
On my way out, my brother’s face came to mind.
I won’t see him for at least two months. I think I should say goodbye to my brother, so I went back to the palace.
My brother was obviously as busy as my dad, but he was definitely a person who would be pissed off if I went on a trip without saying goodbye.
So I’ll have to go see my brother.
If it’s dad, he will be okay for me to be away for a long time, but my brother is extremely sensitive if I leave without a word. Perhaps without me, he feel anxious.
“Yulia!”
“Brother! I’m here to greet you today.”
“… What greeting?”
“I’m going to go to the villa to play for a while and get some rest.”
“Yulia. I’m asking because I think I’m mistaken, but don’t you always rest in the first place?”
Oh my, I shouldn’t have come to him.
“I’ll go now. I just came to tell my brother that I’m going on a trip.”
“How long are you going to be away?”
“Maybe for a month or two.”
“I see. I want to go with you, but you won’t like it, so I’d rather stay here, right?”
“Yes.”
“You’re heartless. The answer came out right away.”
Even if he said that, he was smiling kindly.
“… Then be careful, Yulia.”
“Of course I’ll bring a lot of escorts too. You don’t have to worry about me.”
He looked at me sadly. Is it because he’s worried about me or I resemble my mother that he stared at me for a long time? I don’t understand.
***
“Princess, I’m ready. You have to get up now!”
“Huh… already?”
As expected, my dad is quick to act.
Yesterday I wanted to go on a trip, so he prepared everything in one day.
“… Ah. I’m still very tired.”
“Sleep in the carriage. The carriage is enchanted, so you won’t get motion sickness even for a long time.”
“… Yes.”
I changed my clothes and went outside.
Then what I saw in reality is different from my expectations. I didn’t think that the scale would be this big.
Why are there so many escort knights?
It felt like my head was throbbing, but I just dismissed it.
There’s nothing bad about having a lot of escorts. And it means that my dad is worried about me, so it was enough to take it well.
I was escorted and got into the carriage.
When I heard the door shut, I covered my face with both hands.
“Haha, what should I do?”
There is no way I can get away from the villain anymore. I have no choice but to entrust my fate to the heaven.
Why am I worried about this? It’s a losing war anyway, but why do I think that he’ll win and come back?
This is why my thoughts are scary.
“Well, I’m going on a trip now anyway.”
I’ll just have to go there with the mindset of having fun.
Shouldn’t I go on a trip with the mindset of taking a break? Don’t think about anything, just think about myself.
Maybe I should empty my mind and come back.
He’ll be on the battlefield anyway, so there’s nothing to worry about in the meantime.
So, it would be better to enjoy it as much as I can before he comes, right?
Let’s just think of myself.
“… Ha.”
I grabbed my head tightly with my hair in anxiety.
“What should I do?”
That won’t happen. It really shouldn’t happen, but… What if the villain really wins the war and returns? There was really no way to escape. No, there was only one. Escape this world! My death!
Dying is the only escape. If I am completely bound by the villain, I will never be able to be happy.
It’s because we had no relationship before, so I guess that’s natural.
I closed my eyes and saw my future.
A very dark future welcomed me.
The ending of the character named Yulia is to face eternal misery.
Still, I wanted to live longer while receiving a lot of love from the family.
I wanted to live with a lot of love from the people around me.
“I want to live.”
A beautiful cloud spread out in the sky seen from the window of the carriage. My attention were taken by the clear sky. I’m not going to die. I will survive!
“I don’t want to die.”
For me and my family.
I’m going to do my best to prevent the ending of the Beatrice royal family from facing the ending of the original. If I have to kill the villain to avoid the ending of the original, I’m willing to do so.
Perhaps marriage to the villaim was the best way to keep an eye on him.
So don’t be too depressed. Let’s not think too negatively but think positively!
“…. He just need ti die in the battlefield.”
Then there won’t be any danger, because he was a man full of deceit.
I hope he just die because I can’t read his emotions at all.
I couldn’t help but regret trying to believe what he said about loving me because I thought it was sincere.
I can’t believe I almost fall for such a sweet lie even though I already knew the original stoey.
If I really didn’t hear that, I would have believed it.
I almost believed in the words that he would pledge loyalty to the imperial family in front of my dad at the New Year’s festival.
But I won’t be fooled anymore. I won’t fall for that handsome face.
“The weather is nice.”
But wouldn’t this trip be fun? If the weather is not bad, wouldn’t it be a pleasant trip?
With the expectation of being able to shake off this anxiety, I hope I can fully eliminate my worries on this trip. That will be enough.