“Lies.”
I couldn’t trust him at all.
“…How are you serious? I can’t even be sure if it’s the truth or not from the beginning.”
“I mean it, from the beginning to the end.”
“No, I never trust the duke.”
“…Didn’t I give you faith before?”
I didn’t think he’s a reliable person. That’s the type of person I think he is.
It must all be acting, being sweet to me.
Is he trying to change his words after saying that himself?
Since the beginning, there was no trust between us. We just made a mistake overnight.
“If you were in my shoes, would you think that you are serious?”
“Yulia.”
“You’re lying, and acting in contradiction to your words.”
“I’ll try my best so that you can trust me.”
“Try? You don’t have to.”
“Yulia…”
“We just have to end it here. Honestly, I don’t know why you’re doing it to me.”
“I said it before, I can’t live without you.”
That sentence again?
Is he nuts?
Many thoughts crossed my mind. But, the moment I saw his eyes shaking, my mind became even more jumbled up.
He somehow looked very vulnerable, as if he would collapse the moment I touched him.
Why is he making that face? Is it just acting?
I couldn’t understand him at all.
What does he want? Above all, is he sincere?
“Yulia, please don’t abandon me.”
“…….”
Is he resorting to begging now? Is he pretending to beg?
“Yulia, what should I do to make you trust me?”
“Have we ever had trust between us?”
It was funny. In the first place, there had never been any trust between us.
Such a relationship could turn into dust at any moment.
That is our relationship now.
“You can’t make me trust you when it didn’t exist in the first place.”
In the first place, we’re not meant to be. According to the original work as well, we had a bad relationship.
He was the cause of my death and tragedy.
So even if he seems serious now, the moment the person he’s looking for appeared, he’ll turn his back on me.
“Yulia, I really can’t live without you.”
“Why? You’re the Duke of Siegbert. You’re very young and is well-known.”
Like a true villain, he’s perfect in every way.
“What do you want to marry me for?”
He have everything, but the only thing I could point out that he doesn’t have is emotions.
No, there’s one more, lineage of the imperial family.
Other than those two, he had almost everything.
“I can’t find any reason why you’re so obsessed with marrying me.”
“Yulia, you’re the one who said it first.”
He took my hand and kissed my palm. Surprised by the action, I brought my hand back.
I calmed down my thumping heart.
His eyes were filled with longing as he looked at me. It’s the gaze of a person who wants to eat me right away.
“I’m the first person you see to be more handsome than brother.”
It was unfair. I didn’t remember ever saying that.
No, wait a minute, why does he call my brother as if it was his own?
“Don’t call my brother like that.”
“He’s the brother of my wife, of course he is naturally mine too.”
“We’re not married yet.”
“We’re going to do it soon.”
Who said that? I’m not going to do it.
Yes, let’s just ignore him. That would be beneficial for my mental health. My mouth will only hurt if I argue with him.
“And when did I ever said you’re more handsome than my brother?”
Well, it’s not wrong, but I never said that outloud.
“Yulia, when did you think you said that?”
“That night?”
“Yes, you know it very well.”
“Let’s pretend it didn’t happen.”
“How can I pretend it didn’t happen? You took away all my firsts.”
My eyes immediately shake as if it was hit by an earthquake.
“My first kiss is also…”
“Argh!”
I shouted urgently and covered his mouth with my hands.
There was nothing else I could say. I just hope no one around heard him.
He needed to take the secret of that day to his grave. Neither my father nor brother should know that at all.
And why is he bringing that up when he promised not to disclose anything about that day.
“You didn’t act like whats promised!”
He tilted his head as if he didn’t understand me.
It was clear that he was doing this on purpose.
I told him that my brother and dad shouldn’t know that!
The villain gently held my wrist and removed my hand from his mouth.
“Yulia, the promise is already broken.”
“What?”
“I didn’t feel like doing it and had no intention of holding the promise.”
He finally showed his tru colours. I bit my lips without realizing it.
“Yulia.”
“……”
“Don’t bite your lips, it’ll bleed.”
“…… What do you want?”
“Isn’t it funny that someone who knows what I want best ask me that?”
His hand wrapped around my cheek and his eyes contained strong desire.
That alone allowed me to guess what he wanted.
“Do you want me?”
“Yes, I want you.”
“……”
From head to toe.”
He held a handful of my hair and kissed it as he looked at me.
“I said it before.”
“I’m not an object, I’m a human.”
“Yes, of course you’re a human.”
“……”
“That’s why I don’t want even a piece of you given to other people.”
He was really out of his mind.
“I want even every breath you exhale.”
As expected, my judgement wasn’t wrong. He wasn’t in love with me.
It was merely an obsession because I took his firsts.
I took a step back from him.
“Don’t come to me from now on. I’ll accept your apology so stop it.”
“…… How can I get you?”
“……”
“Yulia.”
Chester grabbed my hand and kissed it again.
“I’ll visit you tonight.”
“No, you don’t have to.”
“There’s still a lot you want to say right?”
“……”
“Avoiding the eyes of brother and father, our conversation…”
Of course, now he changes the topic to my brother and father.
I don’t want them to be involved any further!
“We’re not married and isn’t planning to in the future.”
So…
“Please don’t call them so familiarly like that.”
“We’re going to definitely be married.”
“Who said that?”
“I can say whatever I want.”
“…… I don’t like it!”
Leaving him behind, I ran quickly inside.
Even though he’s the villain, he can’t come inside without my permission.
It would be a problem if he forces his way in.
…Is it a mistake?
If he entered my room, I didn’t know what he would dare to say and do.
***
As soon as the sun went down, darkness consumed the place.
I took measures in advance to prevent people from coming near my room, so I shouldn’t worry about it.
“I’m only allowing it this time.”
“Yes, Yulia.”
“Next time, don’t ever come here. I won’t allow it.”
“……”
I brought a white paper and pen I had prepared in advance.
Verbal contracts aren’t allowed. I have to write the contract on a paper like this so that there won’t be any problem later.
“Come here.”
“Yes.”
“Don’t reveal everything that happened that night.”
“…….”
Why didn’t he answer?
“Please marry me for that condition.”
“What? No… why are you so obsessed with marriage.”
“Marriage is the most peaceful and pure way to show the world that you’re mine.”
He sat next to me. No, why is he sitting so closely?
The bed isn’t small, why would he stay so close in the spacious room?
I really didn’t like it.
“It’s also an official way to prevent anyone other than me from brushing even a single strand of your hair.”
He wrapped his hand on my cheek and pushed his face towards mine.
His face is scarily handsome and it made my heart stop.
I couldn’t tell whether my heart was beating loudly because of fear or his handsome face which was close by.
I pushed his shoulders and tried to keep my distance.
“Then what is the informal, unhealthy and impure way?”
“I think I could act it out faster than to say it.”
His lips overlapped with mine, overshadowing what he was about to say.
I pushed his shoulders away but he didn’t budge.
Rather, he hugged my waist tightly with his other hand so that I couldn’t move.
What is he doing now?
He tried to enter his tongue on mine.
Even though I tried pushing him away, I became dizzy because of the kiss.
My mind went blank and I couldn’t think of anything.
My head, which is like a clean sheet of paper was dyed black making it impossible for me to think of anything.
I was slowly consumed by him.
“Ha, ah…”
His lips parted from mine just before I could do anything.
His kiss wasn’t painful enough to tear my mouth like before. Rather, it becomes gentle.
I was so weak that I became out of breath just from one kiss.
Still, it felt better now that my back was touching the soft bed.
I felt very comfortable.
But his eyes was still filled with unfulfilled desires.
“Yulia, this is the impure way.”
What? This is the impure way?
“I’ll tell you the unhealthy way now.”
“No! You don’t have to tell me!”
“You said you like kind people right? Don’t worry, I’ll be sure to be gentle this time.”
Both of my wrists are being held by his arms. There was no room for me to move.
Looking at him smiling drowsily, I could only imagine the dark future that was about to come.
Again, his lips swallowed mine. My body responded to him well.