Chapter 10
~~ Thank you for the Donation Lamii. ~~
It was only when I couldn’t breathe did I push his shoulder with both hands, and his touching lips fell off.
I did something I would regret for a long time.
If I could go back to the past, I would choose to not do it again.
Time has already passed, so I can’t go back, but I have time to regret it.
“Chester. I think this is enough.”
“……What?”
“You don’t love me, you’re just obsessed with my body.”
He responded in a red flag to my remarks.
“Yulia, you have to take responsibility for making me unable to live without your body.”
“……Why is that my responsibility?”
I was speechless. I wanted to argue back, but I couldn’t think of anything to say.
His hand caressed my cheek and with his bright red eyes, he stared at me with deep desire as if wanting to eat me.
“It’s Yulia who seduced me first, attacked me first, and actively took away my purity.”
Can you get rid of things that I don’t remember?
I don’t remember that!
I couldn’t even make excuses, because I didn’t remember that.
“Now I can’t sleep without Yulia.”
“No, it’s not my fault!”
“Without you, I have nightmares.”
“……”
Why are you acting like this to weaken a person’s mind?
If you pretend to be poor like this, I can’t say anything.
If you know that and act like this, you’re very clever.
“I can’t sleep comfortably without you, Yulia.”
“……Even if it is not me.”
“When I see you, I don’t see hallucinations, Yulia.”
“……”
“Can you please stay with me?”
Is this really the truth? I was very suspicious.
The original didn’t tell us in detail about the villain.
All that was said was that he had a poor childhood without his parents.
At a young age, he went out to the battlefield and became a war hero as he crossed the limits of man and returned to become a Duke of the Empire.
After meeting her for the first time at the funeral of the female lead’s father, he became obsessed with pretending to be friendly.
He then annihilates the Imperial family, saying that he is bothered by the princess who had been chasing him for a long time.
Eventually, he degenerates into a foothold for the female lead and male lead to continue.
It was the role of listening to the female lead, half of his mind and becoming a lunatic, eventually taking his own life and leaving the scene.
However, there were no details of the character Chester in the original.
Perhaps because he lived in the war zone at a young age, he might have hallucinations as an aftereffect.
“I can’t marry you Chester……”
“……”
“And I don’t know if you know, but my house is a bit strict. I don’t like being with strangers.”
“My father is not the one to blame for being with me.”
“What will your brother say?”
Honestly, my dad would welcome him with open arms because he liked me, not at all restraining me from being with Chester.
But my brother was different. My brother didn’t like me marrying someone.
Maybe my father is free from mother, but my brother hasn’t let her go yet.
And I look very much like my mom.
The past is just the past. It’s true that you love me in any direction now. It was okay now.
“It’s okay. Isn’t Your Majesty the Emperor of the Empire your father now anyway?”
Why does my dad’s name become a father?
“No, wait a minute. Why do you call him father?”
(T/N: this part made no sense but bear with me)
“You know that know one can reverse the decision if Your Majesty allows it, Yulia.”
When he pointed it out, I changed my words.
“No. If I ask for it, he’ll reverse the decision.”
“Do you really think so?”
At first, he acted like a pathetic puppy as if he were begging, but now he acted like a beast.
There was no distinction between what appearance was sincere. No, rather, I thought neither of them might be sincere.
“If I whisper to you that I love you……”
“Chester, don’t act. There’s nothing you’re serious about.”
“Yulia. Are you confident that you won’t run away even if I treat you sincerely without acting?”
“……”
“Even now, you have such a scared face. If I treat you sincerely, will you be able to endure it?”
Even this appearance, is it a mask too? It was difficult to know the sincerity of the villain.
The original treated the narratives of the male and female lead characters as important, but almost omitted other characters.
His eyes contained only me.
“What? Yulia. Hurry and answer it. Would it be better for me to treat you under the mask of kindness as I am now?”
His hand stroked my cheek. With his eyes suppressing the want of eating me right away.
“Or should I treat you with all my heart?”
“What’s your sincerity?”
At the end of that, I couldn’t continue or hear his answer.
My lips were being eaten by his lips.
Even if I wanted to push him away, my hands couldn’t move. Because both hands were held only by one of his hands.
All I could do was wiggle my fingers.
I didn’t hate his kiss. No, I rather wanted to make it deeper.
When she opened her lips slightly, he pushed his tongue through the gap of her open lips.
My lips fell off when I was out of breath. At the same time, a fluttering breath burst out.
“Sigh, ha….”
My head seemed to be colored with black ink. His eyes were bright red when I barely opened my eyes to look.
(T/N: Black ink = like she was dizzy and everything was going black)
His eyes looked very cold.
“……Are you serious about this?”
Do I just have to accept that cold gaze that seems only possessive, where I can’t feel any emotion at all?
Is the true face of the black screen the desire to own physically?
If so, I didn’t like it. However, that didn’t mean that his masked appearance was good either.
In the end, it means that this is his nature under the mask.
I just didn’t want to get tangled up with the black screen anymore.
“If this is what you mean, let’s not see each other again.”
“If I treat you with all my heart, do you think I’ll let you go to the Imperial City?”
It was creepy. I thought he would do it if it was him.
“Chester.”
“You always call my name when there is a disadvantage.”
Why does he have a face that is about to collapse?
“If I treat you sincerely, I will lock you in a room and make you unable to meet anyone other than me.”
He swept my cheek with the back of his hand.
His eyes didn’t move a bit where I could feel no emotions in those eyes.
I don’t know if he’s good at hiding his feelings or is he someone who doesn’t feel emotions?
“Maybe I’ll make you unable to get out of bed.”
“……Chester.”
“I want to own you completely. From your head to your toes, even a strand of hair.”
He took my hair and kissed me. But why does it feel so weird?
His eyes staring at me while he kissed my hair was enough to make me forget how to breathe.
Because he looked so handsome.
“I want to own every breath you exhale.”
“……That’s not called love.”
Yeah. This was not love, but obsession. At this rate, I could see a future in which I was almost the only one to be hurt.
Still, I had to say what I wanted to say.
“Chester. It’s not love, it’s just obsession.”
“What’s wrong about obsession?
What do you mean? That’s not love!
“I don’t want to lose you to someone else, after all, it’s like the feeling of love you’re talking about.”
“That’s not what I meant!”
“So what do you mean? I acted out of my character to fit the ideal type you wanted.”
“……”
“All because you wanted someone sweet.”
“……You acted? I’ve never seen you being kind though.”
“Do you want to see what happens if I don’t pretend to be kind?”
His fingers were entangled with mine.
Then, with appropriate strength he made me unable to move on the wall but he wasn’t too rough that it hurt.
As his face got closer I wondered if he was trying to kiss again so I closed my eyes reflexively without realizing it.
But his lips did not touch mine.
I opened my eyes out of curiosity and saw him untying my clothes with his mouth.
Then the fixed ribbon turned into a piece of cloth in an instant.
“Chester!”
“It’s just the two of us here anyway, so you don’t have to worry.”
“That’s not the problem!”
“It’s not even the first time.”
After his words, the knot that untied revealed the area around my neck. My skin, which was clean, turned red.
Perhaps when I went back and checked, it was clear that there would be marks left.
“Chester!”
When he was called by his name, he stopped moving.
“Yulia, are you crying?”
He looked very embarrassed.
I could see why he looked like that. Because, transparent tears poured out of my eyes.
“Don’t cry Yulia…… If you don’t like me acting like this, I’ll hide it for the rest of my life.”
“……”
“I don’t want to see you crying outside the bed.”
Everything you were starting to say was going well so why would you say that! If it weren’t for that, I would have really let it slide.
I almost felt that his embarrassed expression was sincere.
“Yulia. Don’t cry.”
He wiped away the tears running down my cheeks with his fingers. I was almost mistaken by this appearance.
This is a person that can’t be kind, as I said earlier, he’s just hiding his true nature again.
I didn’t want to stay here at all. I pushed him hard and spoke strongly, wiping away the tears that flowed.
“……I hate you!”
A lot!