*Young-ae means Young Lady of noble title.
I didn’t have any lingering feelings about the expensive things I knew I could possess them if I really wanted too
But this room was a little different.
Although the time here spent was short, it had its own meaning for it has lived with me for a lifetime. I’ve never valued this room because I was used to it, but the bitterness came by as I left.
“Even if it’s no longer your room in the future, You come to me without permission. How can I ask for this?”
“Hmm?”
I realized that my hard-working castle was a sand castle that easily collapsed in the waves in the rain and wind.
It wasn’t such a good feeling.
I’ve been separated from my parents ever since I was born. I’ve only lived with the Crown Prince. There was no day to let go of the pen in my hand because I needed to be an empress for him meaning that I had to reduce my sleeping schedule.
The Empress’ job is to look after the Imperial City.
Hwangseong is the center of the empire.
I worked hard for him because I knew that the collapse of Hwangseong would be the main collapse of the empire.
I have learned many things day and night to manage the work of my list, or to deal with the work he struggles with.
She was raised as a crown princess to become a perfect empress, but now she has changed and so has the Oracle and is now abandoned.
How can I express this sense of deprivation and loneliness?
“Princess, you must have heard me wrong. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Do you want me to explain it again?”
Lady Lurtella seemed surprised for a moment, but soon she hid her feelings and smiled leisurely.
“Isn’t it the spirit of the Lurtella family?”
“No, I’m the former lady of this Oracle .”
She smiled low. A mellow laugh was wrapped around my ears.
No one wouldn’t know that because of my pink hair.
She looked down at the Young Lady smiling at her without answering and added stress upon my temples. Suddenly, I got a headache. The Queen’s seat, or the Crown Princess’s seat, was not so easy.
But the Young Lady in front of her was talking like a happy child to have the toy she wanted.
“That’s rude, how dare you say it in front of someone.”
“Isn’t she really thinking about something? You know the Oracle has changed now. I’m sure you know that I’m going to be the Crown Princess.”
It was a bold provocation of a Young Aristocratic Lady.
The servants around began to tremble.
The Lady’s excessive appearance was the cause.
He was two or three years younger than me. I didn’t say I was scared or angry. I just lowered my eyes and was in annoyance for a while.
“La-dy.”
The Crown Prince will spend the rest of his life with this woman.
I thought if everything changed, he wouldn’t change.
“Young Lady of the Lurtella Marquesate.”
It all seemed to be a futile belief.
“Do you regard yourself as more noble than the Emperor and His Highness?”
“Pardon?”
I had humbled myself even more because I gave my everything to him.
“You know that neither the King nor the Crown Prince has cast me out of this castle. Young-ae is the only one here who doesn’t know that I’m still the fiancee of the Crown Prince, the owner of this castle, and you’re my subordinate.”
As soon as the Oracle was changed, it was unpleasant that I gave all of me to the prince who had notified me of the breakup without any prior notice, as if throwing away an unnecessary long-term partner.
“I hope you don’t mind if I don’t carry your fault to heart.”
All my life, In all my life………
I felt ashamed of the things that I dedicated my whole life to
“Take it*”
(T/N: She’s referring ‘Lurtella Young-ae’ as an object.)
“…….”
“…….”
The servants held Young-ae’s arms roughly while being wary.
Lurtella Young-ae’s face was embarrassed, but it was also for a minute. But hid her expression that she couldn’t wait to see the look on his face.
Young-ae, who was caught by her servants, seemed to say something as if she was speechless, but soon closed her mouth and stared at him.
“Let’s have Lady Lurtella tied with both wrists connected to moving horses.”
“But that’s….!”
The attendant gave a face of concern to Young-ae, asking if it would be okay.
I nodded.
“It’s a light punishment for coming to the Crown Prince’s castle without knowing a reason.”
The Capital servant’s was quick to notice. What he had to follow right now was the Crown Princess, not the Lady in front of him.
The servant immediately bowed his head and said yes.
Before turning around and entering the room, She turned her head slightly and caught The Young Lady being dragged away, biting her lips unexpectedly.
“Your Highness looks ridiculous.”
Immature young love is the thing that ruined me. The reason I was in this situation.
***
It was originally quiet, but as time went by, the crown prince’s castle became silent.
The Reason was Simple.
Because I’m not the Crown Princess.
Rather, there were many people wondering why I was still around here even though the oracle was changed.
At least, I could live without any inconvenience because I was a princess prior the engagement. It’s not that there’s another reason.
“You must have been abandoned by God, too, right?”
“Why else would the oracle change?”
“Well, that’s true. Pegenteria, what can she do? The Beloved Lady was abandoned by God.”
Most of the maids who took the royal family’s orders in Hwangseong were from nobles.
They are not so high-ranking, but usually the count’s fourth and fifth sons and daughters, or the former male barons who had no property to inherit, occupied the place.
Perhaps it’s the patricians of any aristocratic tree’s who are making a lot of noise about me now.
“Well, since you have a status as a princess, why don’t you marry a king from another country?”
“Who would marry a lady who was abandoned by God?”
Is that so? The girls burst out laughing at what was so funny.
I stomped my foot.
The clear sound of footsteps pressed down on the marble floor and made a loud noise.
An unexpected guest arrived, The women, who were chatting for a while, were surprised and shut up like clams.
A new white shoe with a big redberry stuck in it hung over the eyes of those who hastily tightened their heads.
During the short break after the meal, those who had forgotten where they were and chatted held their hands together, trembling with fear.
Their tremors intensified at the sight of me standing still without any word or movement.
It was already widely known that the Young Lady of Lurtella, the woman of the oracle, was kicked out of Hwangseong Fortress with her arms tied.
The Young Lady of Lurtella, the woman of the Oracle, was treated in such a way, but the maids were thinking that they couldn’t be fine.
“What you just said, say it again in front of me.”
The wind blew through the open window, making her pink hair flow.
When my hair, which used to be the symbol of the Oracle, came into view fluttering, the feeling of despair seemed to sink further below the surface.
“Well, Your Royal Highness.”
“As they say, I am not your Royal Highness.”
“Sorry! Your Highness! I’m Sorry, Your Highness!”
I was on my way to meet the crown prince. So I didn’t feel so good now.
This was the first time I felt bad about meeting the crown prince.
For some reason, neither the Emperor nor Empress, nor the Crown Prince, were telling me to get out of the castle. In the wind, I was in a state of neither mind nor peace, and I was spending my life in stress.
It was no longer possible to take care of work on behalf of the sick Empress, and it was difficult to roam the castle freely.
It was a difficult matter of course.
I’m not only a princess, But the Former lady of the Oracle.
“Let me repeat what you just said.”
I repeated the same thing again. The woman just trembled, not thinking of answering.
What should I do with them?
While thinking about it, I happened to meet eyes with a maid passing by.
The maid, who raised me since I was a child, was one of the people who turned her back as soon as the oracle changed.
To me, who loved her, it was as much a shock as the Crown Prince’s betrayal.
After a few days, I brushed away my rough face,and exhaled. I had no more lingering feelings for this castle, betrayed by those who I loved.
When I saw my former maid, I lost my mind to those who were talking about me. Squeezing away my throbbing temples and greeting my tears.
Looking at me like that, I turned away from the ladies who couldn’t say anything. A sigh of relief erupted from behind that she had lived. At the same time, the sound of moving footsteps were heard as if the maids had waited.
The figure somehow felt negative.
I believe we turned our backs on each other right away.
I loved the Crown Prince as a companion to walk with for the rest of my life. When he moved away from his parents and lived in the desolate Hwangseong Fortress, I could not forget his face, which I would hold his hands tightly.
When I came to move inside the palace, I made eye contact with his face, which he held my young hand for the first time when I was six.
I couldn’t wait until 2 o’clock each day because I was excited. After working for a long time, and how much force he pushed into me while holding me in his arms.
I read a book in front of the fireplace. So I tried to give him the strength to bury himself in the blanket he put on me.
At that time, when I fell asleep tired, I couldn’t forget my senses when I was having a hard time with my young heart.
The image of him giving up his mask was still vivid standing in front of the door.
I spoke to the knights. A familiar patronage out of the window.
“I’m here to see the Crown Prince.”
It caught my eye.
The knights, who were rarely standing in front, politely bowed their heads and opened the door.
I couldn’t forget all those memories. Nevertheless, it had to be forgotten.
At the same time as he let go of me, she had to let go the sweet memories she had cherished.
It’s because they’ve become memories that don’t have any good meaning anymore.
“Your Highness.”
The scent of tea that both of us used to drink together made reality become even more clearer.
It was a tea made by drying very precious flowers only in the east. The flower was very small and did not bloom much, so it was a tea that could only be tasted in Hwangseong.
Now it’s not natural to see him like this and drink tea without me.