Chapter 75 (Part 1)
Holding the report, Qin Shuhan went to the consulting room with Mother Qin. It was noon now and there were not many people in the consulting room. The female doctor took the report and said, “the fetus is 2 cm long. Its condition is very stable. Pay attention to avoid certain food, and don’t overtire yourself. You will have symptoms like fatigue, loss of appetite, nausea with vomiting. These are normal so you don’t have to worry. Remember to come back for regular check-ups.”
“How much will it harm the mother’s body if an abortion is done now?” Mother Qin asked.
“Mum!” Qin Shuhan immediately protected her own stomach, “I won’t abort the baby! Absolutely not!”
“You this child……” Mother Qin appeared to look embarrassed. Her 26- year- old daughter was having a child born out of wedlock and refused to name who the father is! If one must know, in this current society, a girl who is pregnant before marriage will be subjected to much disdain and attract much criticism, especially when there is no man around to take care of her. How could she allow this?
“This is MY child! I said I will raise him, so I will bring him up!” Qin Shuhan was full of determination.
Seeing her daughter’s resolute appearance, Mother Qin was very distressed. As a mother, which one did not want her own child to have a lifetime of happiness and peace? But…… This child with an unknown father was doomed to be a lifetime burden on Qin Shuhan ah! She was also a mother, she knows what it means for a woman to have a child. Her heart was also aching but thinking long term, she really did not want Qin Shuhan to give birth this burden, “Shuhan, listen to Mum. You are still young! You will still have children in future. In future, you can still get married and have kids. I think Xinhong is pretty good……”
“MUM!” Qin Shuhan firmly rejected Mother Qin, “It’s enough for me to have this child in this lifetime! No matter how great Bai Xinhong is, he is not the person I love! I won’t get married! I’m begging you! Don’t force me!”
“You……” Mother Qin did not know what else to say.
“This……” From the squabble between the mother-daughter pair, the female doctor generally understood the situation and said after hesitating for a moment, “From the blood test, the lady is nine weeks pregnant. If she was to get an abortion now, it will greatly harm to the pregnant lady and there is a small chance of a lifelong infertility.”
“This…….” Hearing the doctor’s words, Mother Qin also wavered.
“……” Qin Shuhan looked at Mother Qin, “Mum! Please!” She was 9 weeks pregnant, yet she did not have severe nausea, nor any other pregnancy symptoms so she knew that her child must be so sensible that he does not make trouble for her…… She really really loves this child…… really really loves…… She will spend the rest of her life loving this child, and make sure that this child grows up healthily and happily……
“I know……” Mother Qin drooped her shoulders powerlessly, “Let’s go……” She only applied for half-day leave from the school. As a teacher of an elite third year class, it was already very rare to get a half-day leave. Now that the wood has already been made into a boat1, she could only take one step at a time……
1. meaning what’s done cannot be undone
“Thank you Doc, bye!” Qin Shuhan smiled at the doctor before leaving the consulting room with Mother Qin.
The mother-daughter pair left the consulting room one after another. When they reached the hospital entrance, Qin Shuhan looked at Mother Qin, “Mum, let me drive you back to school.”
“No need. I’ll take a cab back to school myself.” Mother Qin refused Qin Shuhan. Her heart was still in a mess. Ever since Qin Shuhan told her that she was pregnant, her heart felt as though it was being crushed by boulders all the time making her unable to breathe, “You have also only asked for half-day leave. Sending me back is not on the way.”
“Mm.” Qin Shuhan also understood that it was best to let her mother calm down by herself now, so she also did not insist, “I’ll go and hail a cab for you.” After saying that, she went to the roadside to catch a cab. It was only about 5 to 6 minutes later that a taxi arrived. After Mother Qin got on the taxi, Qin Shuhan waved goodbye, “Mum, send me a text once you reach the school.” She then carefully noted down the taxi license plate number.
After seeing Mother Qin off, Qin Shuhan turned around and sighed. With a lowered head, she walked towards the carpark. She knew that her parents would not agree for her to have this chid, but things that she has already decided, cannot be easily changed. She loves Lu Anwei deeply. Since the both of them do not have a future, then she wants to keep this child. This was the most beautiful gift that heavens have given to her……
Thinking of Lu Anwei, Qin Shuhan recalled once more the photo in Lu Anran’s phone. Her heart involuntarily ached. Yesterday, because of Lu Anwei’s matter, she tossed and turned for the entire night, until the next morning where she was in a trance state of being half- asleep and half- awake. Maybe it was better to give Lu Anran a call tonight and ask about the photo…… Also don’t know how was Lu Anwei now? The death of a close buddy must be very painful for him…… but she could not help with anything…… With such thoughts, she reached carpark area. As she lifted her head up, she saw Lu Anwei’s figure. Lu Anwei also seemed to have noticed her as he was initially stunned but gave her a polite nod later.
It was as though something was stuck in her throat. Feeling the alienation from Lu Anwei, Qin Shuhan felt as though her entire self has fallen into a bottomless abyss.
T/N: So much agony. I thought QSH and LAW were going to meet in the hospital in the previous chapter. I think the author secretly hates this pairing. (￣y▽￣)╭ Ohohoho…..
Chapter 75 (Part 2)
As Uncle Lu was about to get on the car, he noticed Qin Shuhan and greeted her on his own accord, “Teacher Qin! Such a coincidence ah!”
“Uncle Lu.” Seeing Uncle Lu, Qin Shuhan smiled lightly. Her voice was somewhat astringent.
“Is Teacher Qin feeling unwell? Why are you at the hospital?” Uncle Lu asked.
“It’s nothing. I came with a friend.” Qin Shuhan felt a little guilty so she shifted the topic and asked, “What about Uncle Lu?”
“Ey…… It’s nothing…… Just that Eldest Young Miss was worried about this old man and kept urging me to do a health checkup! I’ve been tortured from morning until now.” Uncle Lu joked.
“It’s good to pay more attention to your health.” Qin Shuhan smiled and said, “What did the doctor say?”
“Ay……” Uncle Lu sighed lightly, “Nothing much.” Only that appearance of having aged 10 years at once really did not look like nothing much ah!
“Oh…… It’s good if there’s nothing much……” Seeing that Uncle Lu was reluctant to talk about it, Qin Shuhan also did not ask further. Instead, she smiled and said, “So, both of you are going back now?”
“Going to eat something before going back.” Uncle Lu grinned. That milk and bread that he ate with Lu Anwei did not fill them up at all, since the torture was finally over, it was time to eat something! Looking at Qin Shuhan, Uncle Lu asked, “Have Teacher Qin eaten? Why don’t we go together!”
“I……” Just as Qin Shuhan wanted to tell him that she has eaten, her stomach betrayed her and started growling, “Uh…… I’ll go back to school and eat!”
“School? The school canteen would have already run out of food at this time.” Uncle Lu smiled and waved Qin Shuhan to get into the car, “Teacher Qin, just come along with us!”
“I drove here myself.” Qin Shuhan still intended to gracefully refuse.
“Let’s all take the same car!” Uncle Lu said, “It’s noon and it will be hard to find a parking lot in front of the restaurant. We will come back to pick up the car.”
“Alright then!” Qin Shuhan could only brace herself and nod.
After sitting in the car, Qin Shuhan chatted with Uncle Lu, speaking one minute and remaining silent in the next. After reaching the restaurant and eating the hot food, Qin Shuhan felt as though she was chewing on wax, but she still casually ate a few mouthfuls to pad her stomach and considered it a meal.
After eating, Uncle Lu insisted on taking a cab back while proposing to Lu Anwei to send Qin Shuhan back to the hospital’s parking lot to pick up her car. Without giving Qin Shuhan a chance to refuse, he managed to catch a taxi and left, leaving both Qin Shuhan and Lu Anwei alone.
“Uh……” Qin Shuhan stole a glance at Lu Anwei out of the corners of her eyes. Lu Anwei has not said a single word to her ever since he met her at the hospital until now. He had not even met her gaze. Qin Shuhan could not help but feel somewhat disappointed in her heart.
“Get on.” Lu Anwei said his first sentence after opening the car door and sitting in the driver seat.
“Mm.” Qin Shuhan replied and sat in the front passenger seat.
Lu Anwei drove while looking straight ahead. Qin Shuhan pretended to look out of the window at the passing scenery. Her heart was in a mess. After a long while, she hesitatingly said, “That… Yesterday… That…. About your comrade…… Don’t be too sad……”
“……” Lu Anwei’s expression visibly stiffened unnaturally for a moment before he replied, “Mm.” Originally, he was secretly happy that they could both spend time alone but the words that Qin Shuhan uttered, ruthlessly gave him an unpleasant shock. What was he secretly happy for? Didn’t he already make a decision? As long as he could silently gaze at her and protect her carefully from a close distance, he would no longer intrude upon her life, and hurt her again.
In this way, even if he died in the line of duty one day, she probably would not be too sad, and at the same time, it would not impact on her life whatsoever. She would get married and have two or three kids together with a guy that could give her a stable life…… Like this, it is already enough!
When they reached the carpark at the hospital, as soon as Qin Shuhan alighted from the car, the car door was closed from the inside by Lu Anwei who then quickly drove off.
The words of goodbye that was stuck in Qin Shuhan’s throat turned into grievances. Tears as large as beans spilled over the rims of her eyes. Step by step she sat into her own car and started sobbing while leaning on the steering wheel.
Wasn’t this what she wanted! Hasn’t she decided? To not restrict him, not enter his life, not force him to be responsible for herself and the kid. That it was enough to love him silently and independently raise their child…… Child……
“No…… Cannot cry……” Qin Shuhan immediately searched for a tissue to wipe away her tears, “Cannot cry. Crying is bad for the child! I cannot cry…… cannot cry……” Qin Shuhan quickly stopped crying and took a deep breath. After fixing her eye makeup, she started up her car and headed to the school.
Once her car left the hospital carpark, a car that was parked at another corner followed behind her at a reasonable pace. Until Qin Shuhan arrived at the school safely, the car that was following her u-turned at the traffic light, filled the car with gas as it passed by the gas station before returning to the Lu Residence.
He was simply unable to rest easy until he was sure that she has reached the school safely.
T/N: LAW is so stalkerish…..