For a while I was eating and resting well.
Fortunately, no additional nosebleeds or bleeding occurred since then. I didn’t have a headache and my fever subsided. The body was light and the mind was fresh. The sentences I read sometimes weren’t really something to worry about.
No one else came to visit me while I was sick. Even though I come from a humble family and have no presence in the dukedom, I’m still a Duchess. I felt bitter for no reason.
‘It’s not bothersome so it’s good.’
I decided to think positively.
Rashid has visited me one more time since.
“Are you feeling alright today?”
He asked in a somewhat softened tone compared to before. The energy of contempt, which was wrapped like a blade, also faded, making it easier to treat him. I don’t know what wind brought about this change, but it was a relief for me.
“Yes…it’s great. The weather is good, the meals are good, my body is in good shape. Everything is good.”
It was a little embarrassing because it was the first meeting after having a nosebleed. I keep avoiding his eyes because I don’t know what to look at right away.
“Are you relieved of your anger?”
“Yes, well…”
He showed signs and I followed suit and nodded my head.
“Nosebleed.”
“…that’s also…yes.”
Rashid smirked. The curve with a twisted mouth was smooth, but it seemed to me to be just laughing. Can you laugh when your wife is sick?
I put my head on it and pretended to be sick.
I must decide how I want to live in the future. I have to clear up the situation as soon as possible, but at what timing? What I say and how to say it. Rashid’s response to my request was hardly predictable.
To imagine…
Q. Find the response of the Duke of Penvernon, who was asked to part from the scarecrow wife.
① It’s a marriage I swore to God, so no.
② I can’t let the emperor be bothered.
③ I can’t because it’s too troublesome.
④ I can’t because I love you (it’s speculation, but it’s ridiculous).
⑤ Whatever, you can do that.
What would the answer be?
‘In this case, it would be nice if a sentence came to mind.’
Unfortunately, that didn’t happen. Had I been lucky enough to do that, I wouldn’t have fallen here in the first place. You wouldn’t have drowned even in the first place. (she’s saying that to OG Alyssa. It’s the reason why she says ‘you’.)
“I’ll think about it slowly.’
After that, Rashid broke apart after sharing a few more small talks.
He was so busy that he didn’t have much time to face me in the first place. Whenever I had a chance, he had a lot of work to do, such as entering the palace, having meetings with the Privy Council, and taking care of the dukedom’s matters in his office.
When Rashid was gone, Louise made alterations as promised..
“This must be a blessing in disguise, Your Excellency. I’m glad you’re sick.”
“What’s good about that?”
I replied curtly.
“Fortunately. If it’s not a time like this, when will you get his attention? It’s a good thing.”
Louise said with a grin. I almost thought it was a good thing.
Louise was saying, ‘You are nothing to the Duke’. If you don’t get sick, you can’t get a glimpse of him. She was a poor Duchess. It was meant to crumple her pride.
In this situation, if it was the Alyssa Louise knew, she would have laughed together with her(Louise), saying, ‘Uh yeah, really.’ And she must have been overwhelmed by saying that she is only such an existence at best.