Assistant Architect by Xi He Qing Ling
Chapter 115: Diary
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By the timethey finished wiping off Townhouse and hung up their wet coats, it was nearlynine o'clock. While Gu Yu went out to the yard to feed the cats, Zhang Siyi wentupstairs to bathe.
For thepast two days, every time Zhang Siyi felt very aroused, Gu Yu would abruptlystop and as a result, Zhang Siyi couldn't bear it any longer. Although he felt alittle guilty, he used the time in the shower to find relief. While the warmwater flowed around his skin, he closed his eyes and imagined Gu Yu was therewith him. He recalled his sensual kisses and loving touches and soon his bodyresponded.
Sighing, ZhangSiyi doesn't understand what Gu Yu is thinking. When he was at his house lasttime playing Truth or Dare, Gu Yu said that he needed to masturbate every day.Now that Zhang Siyi was in front of Gu Yu, why doesn't Gu Yu react? It was asif Zhang Siyi was the only one acting like a wild animal in heat.
Blow-dryinghis hair, Zhang Siyi was full of doubts and started feeling annoyed. Since Gu Yu is so unresponsive, let him sleepalone tonight! Zhang Siyi has plenty of blankets in his room anyways. Justafter leaving the bathroom, Zhang Siyi bumped into Gu Yu as he was heading intohis own room.
“Didyou finish bathing? “Gu Yu walked up to him and kissed him on the neck andear and whispered: "Go to my room and wait for me. I'll take a shower first."
Zhang Siyiinstantly set aside all his arrogance and restraint and obediently went to GuYu's room. The bed was already made and this time, there weren't two quilts,but one large one that was spread out for both of them. Zhang Siyi got into thebed and snuggled up with the blankets and quietly reprimanded himself: "Nobackbone."
Lying onthe pillow, Zhang Siyi could smell the essence of Gu Yu. Having him all aroundmade Zhang Siyi heart to begin to stir and his body start to respond. Trying tokeep his mind occupied with something else, he took out his phone and checked hisfriend's social media news. The first entry he saw was the short video clip ofhim that Gu Yu's posted with a love emoji. With his mind full of Gu Yu, ZhangSiyi face became even more red. Sighing, he put the phone away and examined GuYu's room once more.
Zhang Siyisaw the jack-o-lantern was placed on his desk and cactus light was on his bedsidetable which was enough to prove their importance to Gu Yu. Remembering hismessage 'Big Devil', he rushed over to the cactus light, thinking he couldretrieve it.
It was abit of a hassle to undo a portion of his creation. He picked it up and lookedstraight at the bottom and saw traces of ware at the location where Zhang Siyihid his note. Fuck! How can he find such a secret location?
Groaning, ZhangSiyi had nothing to say and pretending that he didn't find anything, he put thelamp back just as he found it. The two black sketchbooks on the table he sawpreviously during his sleep over last year attracted his attention.
Under thepressure of curiosity, Zhang Siyi wanted to take a peek. Since it's unethicalto casually look through other people's private things in case there are secrets,he felt reluctant.
However, when Zhang Siyi thought about 'having a secret', the more he couldn't stop his impulse. Gu Yu isn't an outsider. He is Zhang Siyi's boyfriend. If he quietly looked at one page only, there shouldn't be a problem, right? Besides, with Gu Yu's workaholic nature, it is probably simply work related!
Convincinghimself, he guiltily looked towards the direction of the door. Since he didn'thear anything, he leaned back with a sketchbook in hand and slowly opened acorner to take a peek…. What he saw, froze him in his tracks!
It wasZhang Siyi. He saw a drawing of himself, to be exact…. by Gu Yu?
Not holdingback, Zhang Siyi opened the book wide and looked at the image clearly. It was asketch of Zhang Siyi laying on the table from Gu Yu's perspective standing atthe doorway of the conference room at the company. There was a line of writingon the side: "looks a bit cute sleeping" and the time and initials were noted: "2014.10.16GY."
Zhang Siyithought carefully back. – What was Idoing last year in mid-October? Was it before the provincial z city project? I wasstill drafting bathrooms and stairwells and parking lots all day long?
He turned thepage of the book and saw that the contents were arranged in chronological order.Also, each page was accompanied by a sketch and a one or two-sentences todescribe it.
—- It turnsout to be a drawing diary of Gu Xiao!
Zhang Siyicompletely forgot about 'peeking' and wholeheartedly turned to the beginning ofthe book and looked through it without reservations.
Besides theimages of Zhang Siyi, there were architectural sketches and reading notes. Heflipped through the pages and only read the entries depicting himself.
The first notationappeared on September 11, 2014 when he hadn't been at the job for long. Therewas an image of him looking at his phone with the description: “Thefoundation is poor, the work is not bad, the drawing is not focused, takesshortcuts. Shortcomings everywhere.” There is red circle around it, as ifGu Yu gave him a bad review.
Feeling ashamed,Zhang Siyi quickly turned to the next entry. It was the time he went on the firstbusiness trip with Gu Yu. The description said: "With him on a business trip toevaluate the site. On the plane ride over, my shoulder got wet." The picture isfrom Gu Yu's point of view with him sleeping on his shoulder drooling…. What a fool!
The next drawingis of the sand tea noodles: "After a long day walking around, I invited him toeat dinner. He tried to bite me! He-he. A happy single-celled fool. In the eveninga friend called, Boyfriend? I teased him. He reacted decisively. Hey straightguy."
Zhang Siyi:“….”
The nexttime Zhang Siyi appeared in the journal was the day the Child Labor group wonthe competition in the company.
“GroupA lost the internal bid. He feels lost and his mind isn't strong enough. ”The picture is a Chibi version with a drooping head … Gu Yu can also drawcomics? It's a very good portrayal!
Another twopages forward and the jack-o-lanterns appeared! "A pumpkin lantern given to meby him. Thought of a funny childhood. Hehe."
Zhang Siyi:“…” Pumpkin son? (=_=)
Continuingonto more pages, the next entry is November 13, 2014, when there was a periodof intense overtime. The image is Zhang Siyi with big black eyes, as well asthe text: “I think this guy kind of likes me …”
…… What? Like GuYu? At that time? No way! How can Gu Yu think that?!
When ZhangSiyi turned over the page, the page was almost blank. There was only oneEnglish word written in the middle: “Upset.” There wasn't a time noted on the page. Was it thetime of the dispute in the bathroom? Sure enough, on the next page the notesaid: “unexpected winning bid.” Except for the disagreement in the toilet,there doesn't appear to be other notes about feeling depressed at that time.
I didn’t think mywords would make Gu Yu feel so bad……. ZhangSiyi was a little guilty.
When thebook was at the end, Zhang Siyi opened another sketchbook and looked at thefirst page. It was about they day they met at the train station in Ningcheng bychance. "It turned out that he was the little crying bag that loved to droolwhen he was a child. Fate is really wonderful."
….. A little crying bag that loves drooling?What kind of adjective is this!
“Itwas an impulse to give him the tape measure as a birthday present, but hedidn’t seem to like it.”
…… It was just an impulse? …… Who says I don'tlike it? I was really moved!
There weretwo pages in December last year, both related to the Cactus:
The imageson the pages are also of cactus. In addition, there are analysis charts anddiagrams showing the differences between the old and new cactus. All of thereasons were explained to Zhang Siyi on WeChat.
“Iwant to hear him play the violin for me…”
……
Turningover the page, suddenly a slip of a dirty piece of paper fell from the book.Zhang Siyi gently reached over to grab it and opened his eyes in surprised: "Ah"– this is the note I left hidden in thebase of the lamp.
"Gu Yu, you Big Devil! I wish you a happy 29th birthday. Oneday I will be even more powerful than you! (╰_╯)——ZSY”
Feeling abit foolish, Zhang Siyi went to see what was on the page of the sketch book.
Gu Yu has drawnthe cactus lamp carefully in detail. The words below the image say: "He justthinks of you at a goal, but you like him."
While ZhangSiyi's hands trembled and his heart jumped, he stared at the words on the page,no longer able to turn them.
It turnsout that Gu Yu isn't as calm and stoic as he imagined. He experienced the samedays of emotional doubts and sufferings that Zhang Siyi had. Only, Gu Yu encounteredthem earlier than Zhang Siyi did. It always seemed like Gu Yu had everythingunder his control, but in fact, he had his own insecurities and sorrows. He wasan ordinary, affectionate man who was deeply in love that was able to pretendotherwise.
Zhang Siyiregretted not looking at these sketchbooks the time he stayed over last year.If he saw them earlier, would they have been able to get together sooner?
…… No, I didn’trealize that I liked Gu Yu at that time and maybe the information would havescared me.
Like amessy spilled bottle of five-spice, Zhang Siyi felt a myriad of contradictoryemotions; love and heartache, happiness and regret.
Hearingmovement at the door, Zhang Siyi quickly put the sketchbook back in place andleaned back in bed. He watched Gu Yu enter the room and close the door and lockedit behind him.
A suddenfeeling overwhelmed Zhang Siyi. The person he loves is in front of him and heis a man. Zhang Siyi doesn't believe the normally stoic Gu Yu is unaffected byhis emotions.
“Areyou still awake?” Gu Yu smiled and lifted the covers to get into the bed nextto Zhang Siyi. He teased: "You aren't pretending to sleep today, hmm?"
When Gu Yulaid down, Zhang Siyi gathered up his courage to turn over on top of Gu Yu and graspboth hands.
Gu Yu:“……”
Zhang Siyi:“……” (o////o)
Despite hiscrazy heart, Zhang Siyi bowed his head and kissed Gu Yu gently on the lips thenadmitted: ” I just…… I read your sketchbook."
Gu Yu was alittle startled: “Hmm?"
Zhang Siyikissed him again, whispering: “I’m sorry. I peeked at your diary withoutyour consent.”
Gu Yu relaxedand looked at him affectionately and asked: “So?”
"……" – Strange, why is Gu Yu’s reaction not thesame as my imagination. How is he so calm?
Zhang Siyisaid: “I don't think of you as a goal. I also like you very much.”
Gu Yusmiled and raised his arm to grab him by the waist and pull him close: “Iknow.”
Zhang Siyi trembled involuntarily…… No, no, obviously he is the one on top.
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